Tuesday, January 03, 2006
I'am Very SAD!! dun know why.. maybe still bothering about friendship stuff!! I told myself to be strong to forget evrything!! but in the end i failed.. but i know lots of ppl cares for me.. even my cher!! but
she dun even care!!
I told my dear,fionA i will not contact her i will nv ever get close to her her back,i ever throw abit of temper.. but i still so softhearted.. Nearly want to contact her her but luckily i din.. i shld end here.. REALLY!! i can't stand stupid feelin and her in my mind.. still care about her!! haiz.. si xin bu gai..
My bro read my blog and knew what happen, i know he wanted to ask more but i refused to say out!! This time round i must really open my eyes big big and choose correct fren le.. I did wan to try to drunk myself so i can forget but i know is not a solution so i gave up of this silly idea!!And becos of drinking i lost a gd fren!!
Now is 1241am, this afternOOn going to face her.. really duN know how to react!! jane u musT come for microeconomic lecture so i can sit with u and ur baby!! i dun wan to face her.. i duN have di courage!! i looK fierce and strong and tough but this time i so timid.. haha.. like a chicken!! so shame of myself.. really dun know how to face her!!
PLeasE My classmates if u all saw something werid going on pls dun ask, if i'm in gd mOOd i may reject nicely if i'am in bad mood, u suan lor!!
i dun wan to like a dog, after vomit out evrything and eat back.Means return to the past. i dun wan likei wa sin sec sch, abit abit show my unhappiness abit abit agure abit abit fight.. i dun wan i also dun wan open mouth close mouth all vulgar words.. i dun wan at all!! i really wan to change for good not bad!! I really wanna give it a try!!
REALLy hope i can find some1 i love and the person love me too so i can tell this person evrythinG. not like now, keeping lots of things in my mind.. my head is gona to burst like freak...