JUST SO SIMPLE

today, went sch just for project. haiz.. bored..
then just now bring my mon go down, i suddenly think of my grandpa.. i cried.. cos i really miss him very much.. i think of the past, the times my grandpa dotes me and the little thing he do for me for
e.g. in the morning i go school, he will escort me to the bus stop and when i saw durian shell at the lift there, i just say wah got durian, either i after sch come back or the very next day, i will saw the durian at home..
and whenever my grandma buys fish egg and fried,and i am doing things or sleeping, he will bring to my mouth.. fried chicken wing also...
every moring i wake up esp weekend or holiday, he know my grandma went to market for very long and he will pek che and say my granny likes to chit chat and forget abt my breakfast or lunch.. either he go down find my granny or he will give me money and ask me go buy my food!
whenever i am short of money he will give w/o questioning.

today, i really dun know wat happen to me. my house got sweet i still buy sweet
hahaha!!

i nid courage and confidence!!

I MUST BE STRONG, I MUST BE BRAVE!
NO MORE SADNESS
I AM CLEAR I LOVE YOU!

These few days no mood to blog. now also no mood.. haiz..
yest day i was too rash.. but lucky din read the last part i type.. heng ar.. dun know now what the feeling XX have...
do i have a chance or another a failure and blow.. dun know..
i really miss i spend happy time with jia n dee.. now not same le.. time changed..
i dun know my feelings.. haiz..
that's all..
really no mood...
but i wanna thks jane and alvina be my advisor.. thks...

Today wenT Swimming with shijia, i thought dee going but in the end nope.. kanda disappointed.. but nvm.. she got things to do ma.. wat to do..

Think tml going to east coast with jane and alvina to swim with my dog mon and jane dog lancy!! fun fun fun...

Gotta be very tanned.. wahahaha.. love it..

u r so sweeT and beautiful in my eyes.. can't get u off my mind.. (secret)

PLs feel that i have feeling for you..

today went sentosa with Jane nad alvina.. wahahha.. we bought lotsa food and till now we can't finished and act smart, we fried fries and calamari rings.. now jane and alvina at my house watch the porn star dvd.. me: blogging cos i watched liao...

Now I am like tomato and i feel hot.. hehehe.. that's the colour man.. hehehehez...

I can't get it out off my mind.. hehehe...(sHHH!, secret) lol...
that's all...

How wish u r mine!! lol..

HAPPY!!^^

TodaY i skiPPed mY lec cos yest do my cds project till very late and i couldn't wake up... I went to my cds class early and present my work.. Aft My presentation, My other classmate have their presentation as well, i have to wait for them to present be4 everybody can leave..In between, i went to meet sindee cos she waiting for shawn and she is alone. aft that got one thing make me feel so good and shuan... lol.. now when i recalled i feel so sweet.. how wish that moment stop.!! hehehe..
^^
So cute, so sweet and so nice.. how wish is mine.. wahahhaa.. just keep it in my mind and sweet in my heart.. lol...

Yest nite was very worried for jane and very pissed off with her cos she turn off her Hp.. and alvina was finding her.. and i was very worried where she is cos she din go home and i couldn't contact her.. but today i know she in sch i felt better.. i now still abit pissed off cos i called her she din wan to ans and she din wan to meet me,i know she dun wan to see alvina but what abt me: i'm ur buddy, i care for you and u din wan to meet me, i was very heart broken can...and curious where she went last night.. i really hope she can talk to me what happen..

i told alvina, let go of this relationship(today).At first i thought there is a glimpse of hope for them but today i saw nothing! alvina wanted to buy her her favourite drink peach tea.. but i told her dun cos i know jane dun wan to see her so no use but alvina said she wan but in the end jane din come back to sch.. i still very worried for her.. VERY!!

JANE!! contact me can.. tell me u are alright and all this won't affect our buddy relationship.. reallY.. really hope to see u again in sch..

as a nanny for both of them, things turn out this way, i was sad to see it.. one is my gd fren one is my buddy is like one side is hand the other is palm.. but wat i really hope is that aft this sour relationship u two can be fren.. both of u, let go everything and hatred and just be fren. i still wan to have my lunch with both of u and have hokkien mee.. is there possible? i am wondering!!

I wish i hope to recieve sms from u or call.. so i can rest my mind.. i know u won't do silly things but as a buddy i wan to be there for u when needed nad u can tell me all ur unhappy things and let me share..

i hope and wished badly!!

All the best for both of ur..