JUST SO SIMPLE

I been suffering thru emotion lately...
I been busy on my work.. And I also have a god son.. Ivy's son..
One night, ivy called me.. we chat for quite long.. i din know when she got married and now she's suffering alot.. I really hope i was there for her.. I hope i can help her but i can't..
Today i went to watch dead silence.. The show was no bad but the crowd sucks.. kids!!! So noise.. FUCK!!
I also saw someone i din wan to see. but i enjoy gg out with my bro n his gf..
GG to be busy.. Cos a big event is coming up.. looking forward to i.. i can learn alot and see alot of ppl...
I wan to meet up with my frenz, buddy and sistas too.. not i busy then they are busy.. SAD..I think the only peson i saw is jane and Alan.. LOL.. We got commons.. hahahahz.. jane know what i talking about..
My Buddy alan gg to ARMY soon.. wan to see him botak.. hahahaha..


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I hate the gg thru the two letter..

Things seems good for me.. Got my understanding and supportive sistas n Buddy..
Now is i not feeling good about things ard me.. Will History repeat i dun know.. I really dun know..

Today went to pray my maternal grandpa @ Lim/Chua chu kang cemetry.. Hot.. Bloody Hot.. But i like cos i wear sleeveless.. Got tanned Abi.. I like..
My dad allow me to drive there.. then aft praying went my granny place.. Then i Drove my cousin Car to petrol kisok fro washing but too many car to wash so lft n went back.. I perfer Auto than Manual...lol..

I happy to see my granny getting well.. she regain her leg strength and health.. think of her days in hospital due to her stroke.. I feel sad n terrify.. Scare to lose her.. Everyday, Rainy or Sunny i will go and accompany her.. buy her food.. feed her.. Help her bath and go toliet for Business.. Evryday Wake up early like 7/8 aand slp at midnight.. Helping her do household chorse.. Hard but i feel is worth it.. I can't Everyweek not visit her once..

I have already a regret not accompnay my grandpa when he is alive.. I hope no more regret. Whenever i recall back my grandpa funneral and the sence he was at ICU with tube poke thru his neck for him to breath and the swollen hand and stomach.. I can't stop my tears falling down my cheek.. His death annivesary is coming.. I hate this date, becos is the day i lose him.. Saw him being burn to ash. left with bone.. Keeping him in my memories and heart.. I hate it.. VERY!!

I miss my grandpa.. GG lunar 7th month.. Does it mean he is back again.. =( *weep
I dun know what will happen if one day i lose her.. *touch wood I definately will break down.. MAybe i will be drunk everyday, smoke till i cough blood.. I dun know.. I dun wish this day will come.. * i cross my finger..

I willing to do anything to hold this bad things from happening... Even my lives...

This sadness is never comparable to losing someone i wanna to be...

Dun wan to blog liao.. wan go weep liao..

I in dilema now.. haiz..
I told jane liao and she expected.. I dun know why i am like that... haiz..
Buddy zhui ming bai buddy le =D
Luckily buddy is there.. or i dun know how long i have to keep. I keep telling myself..

I cut my hair again.. This time short.. din expect to be so short.. but buddy say nice wor.. lol..
Black hair now.. sec sch also not so guai la.. black hair.. lol..

From friendster, Cheong pregnant le wor.. congras her.. Long long time din see her le.. then she so hard to keep in contact lor.. sms no reply.. call no ans.. haiz..
Btw i changed my number liao...hehehehe

I wan to slp now.. bye bye...